2021.12.04 22:34 Miss-Peepers How did your family / friends change once they retired from their workplaces?
2021.12.04 22:34 Forsaken-Eagle-2302 anxiety and mood swings from high stress job?
I work as a data scientist while also juggling a masters in analytics from Georgia Tech, a place I decided to never set foot into again after a mentally harrowing 5 years of a undergrad in Biomedical Engineering with minors in Industrial Design and Applied Physiology. It was a time of my life that turned everything I thought I knew and trusted about myself over on its head. Essentially, it taught me that hardworking != expected success...not always anyway. It also gave me some severe self worth issues, which comes with the territory when you've lived your life ruled by grades. I sometimes joke that even now, four years late, I have a form of PTSD from that time----a joke that I'm not laughing at anymore as I realize everyday how mangled I came out of the experience.
Data Science was a massive career change, I know. It's been five years since graduating undergrad and not finding a job in BME that pushed me towards coding and data science. My family was worried and to take the edge off, I let myself step into the abyss in a way. Granted, it was a very steep learning curve and I've only been working as a data scientist for almost three years this february 2022.
I battle with imposter syndrome pretty much everyday, and waking up with a maelstrom of anxiety, fear, and worry in the pit of my stomach doesn't help. And through this, I still get my job done, still soldier through my classes and take my six hour long coding midterms like I should. I've been doing all right I like to think---good grades and reasonably good pay. I'm financially responsible and as minimalistic as it gets (except for my Dunkin' Donuts coffee addiction and my hunt for the best Chinese noodle house).
But the more I do it --- the more I push myself, the more I find myself lacking to the point that I'm not sure this is even the right fit for me at all. I'm naturally drawn writing --- stories centering around controversial topics, mental health, finance, social/cultural, philosophy---pretty much anything and everything, and I've been told I'm good at it. At the very least, it's always come rather easily to me.
And while I like coding well enough as a hobby like playing my flute, I despise it in a corporate environment with deadlines. Yet, I feel like I should push myself and keep pushing myself because it's the image that my world has of me---an illusion of myself that I lived my life believing, the very same illusion that I have no energy to maintain anymore and the cracks are only spidering out even further, widening with each new day.
I want to quit. I want to pursue a lifestyle that while making me the money I need to live( I don't need much), gives me fulfillment and purpose. To me, writing serves that because the stories I have are stories others too have, but they are also stories that are swallowed and suppressed. I want to give voice to those experiences.
Please don't get me wrong. My family is very supportive of me, but the full extent of their advocacy is withheld due to their fear of my life derailing from a set path and the insecurities that would flourish in its wake. Growing up middle class, a job was always a necessity---growing up Indian middle-class meant I could do nothing but STEM.
I never realized until I was in university that I was better at practical applications than exam taking.
I never realized until getting my first job (I'm in my second right now) that it's extremely difficult for me to work 8 hours a day, slaving away at my computer until I can't think anymore---all for someone else with a purpose I can't give two shits about even if I'm given a million bucks.
Graduating from where I did and where I am in right now, I feel like I should push myself, that I should expect that of myself...I do expect that of myself. But if I quit this career path, I feel that I've failed myself, my family, and would be "behind" in comparison to my peers. I feel like I haven't tried hard enough because my parents tried so much harder---that perhaps I'm being lazy and ungrateful for whining about a job that others would love to have in a field many want to break into. Hell, I've gotten sick of my own whining to the point where I'm not sure if I'm complaining or venting.
I don't know what to do and it terrifies me. You'd think after having a pretty stable affair with failure all these years since I started undergrad, I'd get used to it popping its head up uninvited. You'd think after forcing myself out of the comfort zone since I was eighteen so many times, I'd have made my peace with it.
But I haven't. I constantly feel like a circular peg with no edges trying to fit into a triangular hole.
If you've made it to the end of this obscenely long post, thank you for your time and energy.
If you've any thoughts, please let me know!
have a great holiday!
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2021.12.04 22:34 Noogatuck On the plane to Cincy for the game!
This is my sixth in person game ever. And we’ve lost all of the first five. If we lose this game, I vow to never attend another game in person again until we win a super bowl.
Bolt up you bunch of fucks.
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2021.12.04 22:34 Southern_Eye_6027 live right now with my friend playing it takes two!!! twitch.tv/bubblyxbbq
2021.12.04 22:34 Shupedewhupe We hadn’t even finished it.
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2021.12.04 22:34 develasco22 The University of Cincinnati's fans rush the field as the Bearcats win the American Athletic Conference and go 13–0, almost assuredly clinching a spot in the College Football Playoff
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2021.12.04 22:34 Quasar_Kitsunetsuki Forever BABY? What do you think about it ?
Sometimes I wonder if continuing to enhance some kawaii aspects of BABYMETAL is counterproductive for the growth of this band.
Su and Moa are no longer little girls, plus they have gained a lot of touring experience, met many musicians and different cultures. I would not want this image that belongs to the past in the future to become a kind of cage that will limit the artistic potential of girls.
Of course I have loved the kawaii look of BM in the past . A feature that has distinguished them in a fun and original way compared to other bands. But honestly, do you really think SU at 23 is credible in continuing to grimace on stage? Do you really think discussing about her make-up is rewarding for her?
Wouldn't it be better to reflect and consider that BABYMETAL in the future should focus more on music and the technique of singing and dancing rather than on ephemeral aspects that can only gratify us nerds?
I am speaking in this way as I believe that if not there will be a real breakthrough BM will disappear into oblivion (regardless of the seal) and it will be partly our fault of our selfishness in exalting an image of these girls that no longer has reason to exist.
How do I imagine Su and Moa's "metal look" for the next album?
I imagine SU with her long, loose hair, not particularly well-groomed, who fearlessly uses the growl technique. I imagine Moa with very short blonde hair playing the guitar and dancing without the obligation to please or smile at the fans under the stage.
I imagine Koba letting these girls free to do interviews without anyone's supervision. I imagine Koba encouraging Su to take a pen and write her own songs and emotions on a piece of paper. I imagine Moa playing a musical instrument as well as dancing and participating in song writing.
I imagine we fans who put aside our neuroses and start to consider these two girls as artists and not as collectible figurines.
These two girls deserve more independence and determination in paving the way for the new album. In my opinion this is the only way for SuMoa to be happy to continue this experience with BM. Their role must be an active one, otherwise their enthusiasm will inevitably fade and there is nothing worse than a contractual bond that makes an artist unhappy / sterile.
What do you think about it ?
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2021.12.04 22:34 Snoo-75491 a giant troll
2021.12.04 22:34 Gilgamenezzar 2 Page Scholarly Article Review based on “The Wall, The Screen, and the Image”
If possible, ideally done by tomorrow night, Monday midday at the latest. It’s basically an MLA review of an article about the Vietnam Veteran’s Memorial for a first year Art History/Research class. Will send instructor’s guidelines and a link to the article in PMs. Much appreciated.
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2021.12.04 22:34 DrDiv Use my personal brand I've built up, or do everything under a one-person "agency"?
Cutting right to the chase, I'm a web developer who currently has a decent following (20k YouTube, 5k Twitter, 1k email newsletter) in a niche sector of the industry. I'm looking to start branching off and doing consulting and freelance work, but I'm torn between running everything with my name, or creating an agency name to put everything under.
I've seen people in my industry do either, with success in varying degrees between them. The way I see it in my situation, the pros for an agency would be a disconnection from my name and the ability to scale or automate down the line if I wanted to, but it would require me to build up a brand from scratch and manage the new social media sites for it. Plus, it might be confusing to hire an 'agency' when it's just one developer.
Sticking with my name would be easier, since I already have a growing audience and established content channels. Plus I feel like getting freelance and consulting gigs might be easier because of the immediate name association. But I'm worried about the potential for growth in the future, and if I decide to open source large projects under my name, if they'd be well received since it comes off that I'm the sole developer.
I'd love to hear any thoughts on the above, and if you've come across a similar problem in this (or another) industry. What path did you choose, and how did it work out for you?
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2021.12.04 22:34 momotaneko 砂丘でセックスしまくる観光客によって環境が破壊されているとの論文が「ゲイ差別」として削除されてしまう
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2021.12.04 22:34 TheZenPsychopath DAE take their anti-parallelogram manifold and knot it into an interstitial cloudfibre network? The resulting electron queue in the ionosphere builds kinetic elasticity in dicuboid form, dephasing the solid-liquid-gas triangulation to recondition it into an optimal plasma crystalline vapour.
2021.12.04 22:34 r_irion It’s my Dads birthday today, he found his Silvia 10+ years ago in a dumpster and thought it would be worth saving, has been using pre-ground coffee with it ever since.
When he found it he replaced any missing/ broken parts and hasn’t done maintenance since. After getting into espresso 1-2 years ago I started noticing everything wrong with it, so today for his birthday I got him a Rancilio rocky (used, for a great price), replaced his group seal with a cafelat blue and switched out his shower screens.
I’m pleased to say it’s now running beautifully, and despite the grinder not being the best, it’s still an upgrade and should run like a tank for the foreseeable future.
Dads setup, and a video of a (slightly fast) shot
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2021.12.04 22:34 sakineko_ so what's your first impression of him? (don't mind me i call him s'mores because i can't read scaramsosis back then)
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2021.12.04 22:34 tmhb937 Presenting Luna Pearl
2021.12.04 22:34 I-mind-88 One..now two interviews
I recently interviewed for a position. At the end of the interview, the panel rep shared that there would be one interview and that they would propose their recommended candidate to the hiring official for a decision.
I was just informed that there will be a second interview and now I’m a little concerned. I really think that the position and the Agency is a great fit. Is this common? Should I be concerned?
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2021.12.04 22:34 CoolFlatworm6928 There’s a show tonight right?
2021.12.04 22:34 Connbfb Which nick brawl controversy was the most annoying/cringe In your opinion?
2021.12.04 22:34 theferal1 Adoptees were meant to be perpetual childrb
Seriously, if we’re lucky we can get a hold of our history but often that luck runs out when it completely lacks the info we’ve sought out because I guess we don’t have those rights. I don’t even know for sure what state I was adopted in, I’ve no relationship in with bio or adoptive mom so for me I can’t even search for my records. I was once promised my adoption papers on one of the few and most recent times id considered allowing amom back into my life, she of course “forgot to bring them” when she came to visit for my grandchild’s bday and shortly after in hopes of gaining one of my children’s home address she’d offered to bring them again, no thanks. Point being we are not allowed to know our history, we don’t even know if our birth date is accurate and no one feels we should be able to easily get that info. Our names are often changed while attempting to erase our histories and if we ask questions we are frequently answered with questions like “why would you ask that? Why would you want to know that? What would it matter? Why would you care? Are you really that selfish and ungrateful? “ Yes shame on me, of course it shouldn’t matter please allow me to crawl back into a hole until you need me. If you’re going to comment and tell me that you’re sorry I had a bad experience but #notall you can save it. You’re rainbow experience is what helps sell the billion dollar baby industry and I know it as well as my own story since your great one was all I was allowed to have till I left
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2021.12.04 22:34 RAWlife702 In news
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2021.12.04 22:34 Akashi42 Gib us Cashmere u nAzI!!1!11!!!
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2021.12.04 22:34 CornGobblerz TeKnol0gee
2021.12.04 22:34 ChillyJaguar 128 players is way too much
Yea yea yea, I know Ill be called a noob or a scrub, but the maps are just way too big, and by the time I get to any action after running for 5-6 minutes to a flag on conquest, I die immediately....this is a running sim game with guaranteed death at every corner.
I feel like 128 is just still too much for an arcade game like BF...Ive lost interest in this game, never buying another BF title unless is polished upon release....been burned too many times and Im a BF1942 vet
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2021.12.04 22:34 deboytimo Yamato strength
So I just caught up to the manga and was wondering how strong Yamato is exactly? With her Mythical Zoan fruit (which was soo cool) it seemed like she could tank multiple hits from Kaido, even damage him herself.
Now I was wondering, she has all 3 haki, so including Conquerors. And from her fight with Kaido we’ve seen that Yamato can infuse her weapon with conquerors haki (I think?) Does this mean she’s similastronger strength wise than Luffy? Since she’s far more durable and it was using conquerors Haki that made Luffy smack Kaido for a sec. Or is Luffy using something else?
Would Yamato be stronger than Zoro , Kid and Law?
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2021.12.04 22:34 menorahman100 The Presence of the Shining Ones: ball of light UAP/UFOs are active benevolent and malevolent interdimensional entities watching and manipulating the progression of mankind since the beginning of time.
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